End of Ex Druid's Ridge, peer appraisal time. As the British Cadets are gearing up for their Regimental Selection Boards, an interview that decides how the rest of their army career will be shaped, the overseas cadets are just wishing them all the best for their interviews, in hope that they will commission into the cap badge of their choice. However, I want to do well myself, I want to be maintain my place in the middle third. Despite wanting to help them by placing them in a better place in the peer appraisals (not saying its difficult to differentiate between the good and and the average), I would like myself to be placed in a suitable place such that I still stand a chance to compete for the sword. Self conscious, selfish, maybe, I just feel that I have got so much pressure to do well, I did work hard for the exercise, but most of the command appointments were given to the UK cadets. For Singaporeans to be the first and second amongst all overseas cadets, that is my wish and I have been working hard towards it. Maybe its too early to talk about all of these, but the fact that the Intermediate is ending is not helping, knowing that there is not much time for me to prove myself and before I know it, the decision as to who are the better ones will have to be made.

Platoon Commander always say that he needs more from me, for me to be more vocal in the platoon. What does that mean? Alot of times I find people throwing themselves at the PC so that a better impression could be formed. And with no doubt are these rankings and appraisals done on first impressions, superficial you might say but the truth is many a times ugly.

Enough of ranting, let's gear up for the Inters Navex tomorrow and hopefully that helps in the rankings of some of us.